When everything falls to pieces...

I am honestly amazed by how many bad things can happen in my life in one year.  The worst of it I never post on here in order to protect love ones and I guess also as a form of self-preservation.  It's hard to see it in writing.  To see all the pain laid bare for others to read.  I have fought for everything that is good and right.  I have prayed, read my bible, and looked to God through it all.  I have no idea why God has allowed me to become so broken and be so betrayed.  I know His plan is greater than mine, but right now I am just desperate for a glimmer of hope.  I won't write specifics on here at this point in time.  I will write more later, but now's not the time.  If you are curious or would like to pray for me you can email me and I will talk to you about what is going on.
For now I will focus on protecting this sweet little boy for the pain of this world as much as I can.  I know that he will experience pain, but for now I just want him to have a chance to be a sweet, happy, innocent little boy.