Learning to be a single mom

I had my first day back to work after Christmas break.  I got up early, got myself ready, bundled Graesen up, and dropped him off at Evan's parents' house (that is where Evan is staying right now).  I worked a half day and then picked up my little guy.  Graesen was so tired from getting up early, because for over a year and a half he has slept in as late as he wanted/needed since Evan doesn't work until afternoons.  It used to be that I could just leave for work and Graesen got to stay home with Evan.  Now both Graesen and I have to get used to a different life.  I knew he was tired when he threw a tantrum about getting into his car seat.  He fell asleep on the way home and stayed asleep for 3 1/2 hours.  The poor little guy slept straight through lunch.  I tried to get him to eat as soon as he got up, but he didn't want to (he did eat a lot later in the night).  So, I decided it was time to do something fun. I made a fort with the fort kit my mom made Graesen.  He saw me start and said, "Oh, thank you mommy! Thank you! Thank you!"

 

We played with his toys and read books.  Nothing big, really, but still special.  After dinner Graesen asked to do "exercise."  He loves this workout video I have that is all cardio moves.  I put it in and let him do his exercises :)

 

I think one of the hard things about being a single mom is the fact that you spend all day at work, then come home to all of the household responsibilities.  There is just less time for the fun things, because you are in charge of everything.  I have loved getting to substitute teach up until this point, because I still got a lot of time with Graesen.  I have to say that one of the hardest things about this divorce is realizing that I will get less time with Graesen.  I have to find a full time job.  I am praying that the teaching one I applied for will work out, because that schedule that would give me a good amount of time with Graesen.  I hate that Graesen is going to have to go through so many changes.  He is not only going to see Evan less, but he is also going to have to see me less too.  I want the best for Graesen and it breaks my heart knowing that the "best" is now going to look a whole lot different.